For the last several months or so I've been talking with my husband about a "bucket list"; you know the "things I want to do before I die" list. So last night my 22 year old daughter shared her list. My list has about 25 items; hers 66! At first I was amazed at some of the things she wants to do, but wasn't really surprised. Rachel has always been very adventurous. I remember when she was about 4 years old; we went to Great Adventure. She was too short to ride the "Free Fall" so her and I watched as Jim took the boys. She held my hand and cried "I wanna go, why can't I go". I remember telling her, Rachel you are not big enough. Physically, she wasn't "big" enough, but emotionally she was more than ready. I'm not sure she has ever been afraid to try anything.
As I ponder this, I am amazed at the lessons our kids teach us. When it comes to adventure; Rachel doesn't fear anything. In my journey, I recall living in fear. Mostly about what people think about me, but there are things that I "fear". I am somewhat claustraphobic and so this influences me in elevators, airplanes and any place where people are "in my space". Although I am still trying to evaluate where this "fear" conditioning came from, it can be paralyzing. Most times I find myself praying diligently while in an elevator or airplane "Lord help me". Fear is real. By God's grace I am working through these physical fears. Fortunately, most of my emotional fears have been overcome by God's help. I know longer live in fear of people's opinons and living for approval. This has been a great victory in my life. God is good.
Rachel's lack of fear has been an inspiration to trust God more in even my physical fears. With this in mind, I may be adding some more things to my bucket list!
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